You are my biggest challenge
My one more thing
My constant conundrum
There are times I want to be alone
I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to float
In the middle of a sea
With no sight of land
Just the lack of gravity
From the natural buoyancy
Of a lack of responsibility
I forget your little body is a vessel
For a soul
That hurts when I hurt
And feels when I can’t anymore
I see you notice when my emotions have shut down
I force a smile until it makes itself whole
I hold you until your beating heart shocks
My slumbering conscience into action
Becoming the person I have always wanted to be for you
Fighting monsters underneath your bed
Building bridges to worlds much brighter than our own
Because you will have plenty of time, little one, to discover how people really are
And what truly makes the world go round
In an oblong, crooked path that is far too treacherous for anyone to face alone
I will pull myself together
Remember your sweet love
That comes from your eyes and earnest smile when you know
It is only you I’m listening to
I will love you for an eternity
Carry you in a special place
For if not your mother
What other mortal will be there when the storm is raging and the tides have receded
I’ll show you where to go
And I’ll shield you from as much of the pain as I can
Love is love
But a mother’s love
Is fed by an innocent love that grows the hardiest plant nature knows
It can never die
